Last night we had a Worship night at church. They are awesome! Spirit filled, emotional and enlightening. Toward the end of the service a certain song was sung that spoke to my heart...to everyone's in my opinion. The room was filled with emotion - crying, praying, singing, Worshipping to Him. It was totally amazing and then halfway through the song I had a realization...something that I hadn't been struggling with to my knowledge but something that led me to know that I have been deceived for a while now. THIS BABY IS GOD'S. I don't know how to explain the feeling but all I know is that it was put into my heart that this baby is God's. I can only trust that and not read anything into it. We are all children of God and I pray that is what it meant. Time will only tell. I felt a calm come over me and saw healthy pictures enter my head. This is the first time this has happened the entire pregnancy (in which I have been in constant anxiety).
I had a few more awakenings last night and I only wished the worship night would have lasted a little longer. It was powerful.
Tomorrow is the ultrasound and I can't wait...but I have to. I have to be patient (got that in service this weekend). I did find out something while going through Brady's baby book today. I thought we had his u/s much earlier when in fact it was only 4 days from when this one will be done.
Will update after the doc. appointment!
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