Going Through Changes

This pregnancy has been so different than the last. I know they say they typically are but it was so unexpected. I guess maybe I didn't have any expectation so that is what threw me off - or maybe I assumed it would have been like the last. I don't know. All I know is it is much different and as I sit here at 4 in the morning (wide awake) I think I am glad for that.

I have been very worried throughout the pregnancy which is so strange because I had no fears with the first at all. Those feelings are making way to comfort now knowing I am well taken care of, thankfully. I think in the back of my mind I was still replaying my last labor and delivery (which was sort of tramatic for me) which I was totally unprepared for (unexpected that is). We planned and planned and took classes and it didn't work out for us the way we thought it would. Well, we were both fine and that was the finally destination but getting there was a journey to say the least. Anyway, I am still holding onto those thoughts and emotions and letting go has been very hard.

I've had another "awakening" or clearing of the mind, will you, tonight and I think He has put this into my heart that this is so different because - It is different. It is Him. I'm going to embrace the "change" and w-a-i-t for the outcome that will be so special.

In saying all that, I want to add that my stomach and boobs are growing at unexpectant rates! LOL You wouldn't have known I was pregnant last time unless I told you and this time my tummy is definitely showing signs of growth. I'm hoping to be able to get some actual professional belly shots in this time.

Well, until next time...