Oh, That is SOOOO Cute!

With Kevin gone, I decided to peep around on the computer tonight....at baby stuff. Honestly I did not get to do much of this with the other two. They were both, well, sort of a surprise. So, though it is still quite early in the pregnancy, it is hard to resist the cute baby things.

I was actually looking at Restoration Hardware for outdoor furniture and noticed they have a baby site now too. I haven't been there in a while so some of you may already know that. To my surprise, they have the cutest stuff. Of course, I've kept much of these feelings inside because I know what Kevin thinks about me shopping ;-(. My mom is going to buy booqoos of things so why should I. Well, because that is what you do when you are expecting and I never really got to do that with either of the previous. Not totally anyway :-). I can't lie.

I just want this pregnancy to go smoothly and I want to do ALL the things I did not get to do with the others. One thing I really would like to have happen is a "real" baby shower. I know this sounds bad but I will explain. I had a wonderful shower with Kendra, thrown by my teammates at school. Kendra was born already though, if that can be understood. It was great and I loved everybody being able to see her (that was what it was more about) but I still felt like I missed out on something. Stupid, I know. And with Brady. Well, I pretty much planned it with the help (and I asked for it) of the owners of my workplace. Pretty sad. Again, Brady was already here and I was not feeling well...not to mention he cried the whole time, mainly. It just wasn't the same with the babies already here. I know that sounds bad but it's like, you're at a baby shower and you are "expecting" something. My somethings were here so it was like the climax had come...and gone. Don't me wrong, I love my friends, family and coworkers to death. They were great and I loved the showers. I just want this to be different...I guess what I expected the first time, the last time. I can't explain the feeling, I only know that I feel it. It honestly has consumed my every thought since May 18th (not the shower, but the all things different feeling). That's why in the last post I said I need to get back to gettin'! I know He will take care of us both and I so learned to be flexible from the last pregnancy. I just pray that this one...well...goes a little more steady.

I so digress; okay, so getting back to shopping. We don't have anywhere for this little bundle yet. With it being so early we haven't talked about it but I don't know where to go, whose room, or which kid will be misplaced. Will I have a room to decorate? Well, I'm starting my dreaming and He will make everything work out just as it should. Going back to restoration Hardware Baby now. Nite!