I've been down in the dumps for the last two weeks because I have felt miserable. Yes, a lot of it has to do with hormones, but I forgot the most important thing of all. God. He had His hand in this and I have forgetten to ask Him for the help I want. Talk about having a distraction. The pregnancy itself was enough to distract me away from Him.
Tonight while giving the kids a bath, I got very frustrated because Brady dumped a whole cup of water on the floor. So what you may say? Yes, so what. Geesh, it was just water. But, at that moment I lost it. Kevin is not here and I'm so consumed with worry, fear, emotion, happiness, sadness anything you can think of...I've got it right now. I felt so bad (and no I didn't do anything to hurt the children) that I prayed with Kendra for 10 minutes tonight. I mean really prayed and I had a moment. Clarity rang over my body. I just pray that I can do what I need to, what I got from that moment.
I'm giving it up. I'm tired of sitting around and there are only so many shows you can watch on 10 TV channels. It's time to get back to the basics and get to reading and praying. Life is so short and it is time to enjoy the best things in life - our family and His love.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment