It's a Trick

So, for the last three days I have awakened feeling pretty normal. Yesterday was a pretty good day, but today is different. I felt okay at first. I ate some breakfast (though I need to eat more protein but finding it hard these days), went outside to my oasis and put B down for a nap. I fell asleep on the chair outside and Kendra went to get Emma to play. After I woke up from that nap, I felt sick. Not sure why they call it morning sickness when it last all the time! And I have remained that way since. I'm drinking plenty of water (at least for me) but I'm wondering if it is enough. They say that drinking and eating should keep the nausea at bay...not working for me. I think I'm going to try to take another nap and just pray that I feel better. Or, that I can take a bath when Kev gets home and make it through the night.

Oh the Hormones!

I can only attribute what happened this past week to pregnancy hormones. Kevin said I act like "this" even when I'm not pregnant but I just can't believe that! lol

I've been so tired and not wanting to do anything. I think I have left the house 3 times in the last 2 weeks and not really because I wanted to. Finally, Saturday Kevin pretty much made me get up, take a shower, and go somewhere. Where? Well, it didn't matter. He just wanted me to go. I think he was having a bad day too and he wanted me to feel miserable as well...lol...not really because he wants me to be happy and feel good. That is why he said I should go somewhere. So, what makes me happy? Oh, wait a minute...back up. All day Friday I cried and all Saturday morning. That is the hormone part I'm talking about.

So, Saturday I decide to go shopping since I was up and at'em. I drove into Mooresville feeling like crap (since this was first time being up and driving in some time). I felt like driving in circles and then to go home and say I went somewhere. But, I braved the 98 degree heat (yeah, made me feel so much better!) and went to Bed, Bath and Beyond to look for a pillow. They didn't have it but they did have some cool stuff. Only problem - I was tired and not in the mood to shop. While I was walking around the store I smelled something though, something good. Good thing for me! It was the saches (is that spelled right??). I ended up buying two packs because just smelling them made my stomach feel so much better. I have placed them in my car so I feel good now while I drive.

I then went out to my car, blazing heat and all, and cried some more! I'm serious! It was crazy. I just didn't feel great and I was wondering what in the heck I was doing out feeling this crappy. I finally, after a few minutes, got it together and headed over the Target. What else can make you feel better?! :-) Before going in though I broke out the Preggie Pop I had stashed in my purse and sucked it like there was no tomorrow the whole time I was in the store. By the time I left, it was so sharp and little it cut my tongue! However, I managed to feel a little better while in Target that I bought a great outdoor sofa for our front porch. Had to figure out how to get it home and eventually had the guys take it all out of the box and put the pieces in the car (I had the Altima).

I was ready to be home. I still felt sick but with a little shopping done, my senses were coming back. AND, I have not cried since. So, thank you honey for telling me to go out! :-)

Blah, blah, blah

Another day, more rain, getting bored. Why am I so bored? AHHHHHHHHH I need to get off my butt. I wish I knew what this baby was already because I'm ready to shop! hahaha Sorry honey. I wish I knew what we could do with the kids rooms too. Maybe I should focus more of selling all the stuff we have that we don't need.

I'm planning a large yard sale. We're going to do it when my mom can keep the kids because most of the stuff is theirs. Kendra would be pulling stuff out left and right saying she would want to keep it, even though she cleaned it all out herself. I know her. I have a ton of new childrens clothes that can be sold. I'll most likely wait until after we know what the baby is (Girl) so I'll know if I need to sell some of the boys clothes we have.

Apparently I am feeling a bit better since I am planning yard sales. Hum. Guess eating and drinking does help! Who knew.

"Why are you so lazy mommy?"

Yeah, that was the comment I got from my daughter at lunch today. The lunch that I made her that is. :-) I was explaining or apologizing why mommy has been so tired and why I wasn't doing much with the kids the last week. Then she threw that great line at me. Boy, did I feel bad. I just thought it was funny so I had to post about it.

Today was pretty...I hate to say bad but I was exhausted from the moment I woke up. I managed to take the kids outside for about an hour and I laid on the lounge chair while they played. I actually have them both in bed already. I am about to take a bath and go right to bed.

Praying tomorrow is a better day.

Oh, That is SOOOO Cute!

With Kevin gone, I decided to peep around on the computer tonight....at baby stuff. Honestly I did not get to do much of this with the other two. They were both, well, sort of a surprise. So, though it is still quite early in the pregnancy, it is hard to resist the cute baby things.

I was actually looking at Restoration Hardware for outdoor furniture and noticed they have a baby site now too. I haven't been there in a while so some of you may already know that. To my surprise, they have the cutest stuff. Of course, I've kept much of these feelings inside because I know what Kevin thinks about me shopping ;-(. My mom is going to buy booqoos of things so why should I. Well, because that is what you do when you are expecting and I never really got to do that with either of the previous. Not totally anyway :-). I can't lie.

I just want this pregnancy to go smoothly and I want to do ALL the things I did not get to do with the others. One thing I really would like to have happen is a "real" baby shower. I know this sounds bad but I will explain. I had a wonderful shower with Kendra, thrown by my teammates at school. Kendra was born already though, if that can be understood. It was great and I loved everybody being able to see her (that was what it was more about) but I still felt like I missed out on something. Stupid, I know. And with Brady. Well, I pretty much planned it with the help (and I asked for it) of the owners of my workplace. Pretty sad. Again, Brady was already here and I was not feeling well...not to mention he cried the whole time, mainly. It just wasn't the same with the babies already here. I know that sounds bad but it's like, you're at a baby shower and you are "expecting" something. My somethings were here so it was like the climax had come...and gone. Don't me wrong, I love my friends, family and coworkers to death. They were great and I loved the showers. I just want this to be different...I guess what I expected the first time, the last time. I can't explain the feeling, I only know that I feel it. It honestly has consumed my every thought since May 18th (not the shower, but the all things different feeling). That's why in the last post I said I need to get back to gettin'! I know He will take care of us both and I so learned to be flexible from the last pregnancy. I just pray that this one...well...goes a little more steady.

I so digress; okay, so getting back to shopping. We don't have anywhere for this little bundle yet. With it being so early we haven't talked about it but I don't know where to go, whose room, or which kid will be misplaced. Will I have a room to decorate? Well, I'm starting my dreaming and He will make everything work out just as it should. Going back to restoration Hardware Baby now. Nite!

On to Better Things

I've been down in the dumps for the last two weeks because I have felt miserable. Yes, a lot of it has to do with hormones, but I forgot the most important thing of all. God. He had His hand in this and I have forgetten to ask Him for the help I want. Talk about having a distraction. The pregnancy itself was enough to distract me away from Him.

Tonight while giving the kids a bath, I got very frustrated because Brady dumped a whole cup of water on the floor. So what you may say? Yes, so what. Geesh, it was just water. But, at that moment I lost it. Kevin is not here and I'm so consumed with worry, fear, emotion, happiness, sadness anything you can think of...I've got it right now. I felt so bad (and no I didn't do anything to hurt the children) that I prayed with Kendra for 10 minutes tonight. I mean really prayed and I had a moment. Clarity rang over my body. I just pray that I can do what I need to, what I got from that moment.

I'm giving it up. I'm tired of sitting around and there are only so many shows you can watch on 10 TV channels. It's time to get back to the basics and get to reading and praying. Life is so short and it is time to enjoy the best things in life - our family and His love.

Who is she?

I forgot to mention and guess I should, but Clairipoo is what Kendra has named the little peanut in my belly. Cute huh? Have no idea where the name came from. :-)

First pre-natal

Today was my first pre-natal visit with the new office. I was referred to them by many in the area and everything that I heard was right on.

We had to wait a while to check in. Apparently they were having a problem with their online medical history program. It seemed like you were standing in line forever but, not feeling very well will make it seem that way I suppose. Kevin is so sweet. He actually stood in line for me until we got up the counter.

I didn't have to wait too long to go back and the doctor was pretty prompt about coming into the room. We chatted for a few minutes about what we expect this time around and then I had my exam. We, Kevin and I, were asked to discuss for a few moments whether we wanted the ultrasound. I did not and had already decided. It's pretty early and you can't see much. The doc. assured me that we should be able to hear the heartbeat next time through doppler, so that made my decision. We are waiting. I figure the 18 week ultrasound is good enough. This one would be to get dates, and personally, these little ones come when they are ready.

After my exam we went into the docs. office. I thought that was cool. We briefly talked about my nausea and he prescribed me something if I want to get it filled. I had my bloodwork after that and that was that. Scheduled my next appointment and we left. It was in and out pretty much. I do look forward to meeting the other doctors as well. Dr. B was good and he seemed to really know his stuff. He was not messing around was the vibe I got from him. He was very positive about our wants for a VBAC and said there shouldn't be a problem with that.

One good thing about this place is they are a lot closer than the last. He also said they used to have midwives but then the hospital wouldn't pay for them anymore, or something like that. Makes me wonder about the hospital but I have a feeling all will be just fine.

Until next time...

The Start of Something New

"It's the start of something new. It feels so right to be here with you." Oh oh..

So, I listen to High School Musical too much. It's my daughters fault! lol

I thought I would start this blog to follow my pregnancy this time around. The last one was quite the experiment and my daughter, well she has her own story too. I'm hoping and praying that this one will actually be normal and low key. Yeah, that would be nice.

Being that I am already into week 7 (tomorrow) of my pregnancy, I thought this time was as good as any to start jotting down some things pertaining to the little bean and my trials.

So, the last two weeks have been interesting. I have had nausea and dizziness. I have also been somewhat tired. Seemed like the first two weeks I knew of the pregnancy I wanted to drink nothing but water and a lot of it. Last week I ate not much of anything but I soon found out that if I ate, I actually felt better. My stomach was growling for anything I could find but my mind would not let me eat. I finally just made myself start eating over the weekend and the nausea went away. I did stop drinking the water which I know is bad but I'm going to be working on that next. I started keeping the large thermos like container I got from the hospital of my last L&D filled up with water. If I could drink that whole things throughout the day, that would be plenty of water - hopefully. If you know me, I don't drink one glass usually.

Going back to the time I found out I was pregnant: It was May 18th. I took three pregnancy tests, not on the same day. I know some of you crazy ladies probably did. I was over that. I actually waited at least two days between each test. Two were the sticks from earlypregnancytest.com and the other was first response or something like that (bought from the drug store). Kevin wanted to see a "real" test. HAHA I was a little concerned this time because the lines didn't appear as dark as they did when I was pregnant with Brady or as fast, but that could just be the tests themselves. They were positive and that is all that matters.




Since then, things have been okay. We just started telling people yesterday. I was going to wait until after the doctors appointment but just waiting the almost four weeks that we've known already has been hard enough. My first visit is this coming Thursday. It is a new doctor and I plan on having a list of questions. That will most likely be a post all to its own.


Hopefully this pregnancy will be boring which won't make for great reading but I'll try to make it interesting. I do have two other kiddos to keep up with. That should be amusing at the very least.